I have been compared too many a times this week. I’ve also been asked to change. My esteem was shattered, especially these words came from people I care about the most. I thought they’ve already accepted me for the person that I am. I thought that showing myself without masking anything out will make me more acceptable and loved. Apparently, despite living cleanly, I am still subjected to so much judgement. It hurts.

It’s hard not to mind and just to ignore because I value these people. Their opinion matters to me. Constructively speaking, I am not perfect. I know I need to improve on a lot of things but, when do I have to consider listening to them and in the process, changing and improving; and when do I stop because it’s turning out harmful to my esteem and being to keep on moulding myself into their ideals?

The line is thin. It can be constructive and destructive at the same time. I feel down.