recently, i have been into so many activities. Waking up and getting off the bed are not too hard because im excited about different things everyday. I realized that i should have done these things earlier, since I started working here in Singapore. Maybe things could have been different. Maybe I am happier about myself, thus I didn’t have to rely much on Jay-r to provide me with the kind of happiness I’ve always wanted.
With him, i was TOO inlove that I spent so many hours just waiting for him to talk to me via chat, sms, calls and to see me. I was so content going home immediately after work and church and just look ,stare and wait infront of my lappie. When Im back in the Philippines, I still waited for him to see me (but he seldom did). I passively waited. I refused to do anything while waiting because I was afraid i might miss my oppurtunity to talk or to see him if I do some other things.
Guess, waiting is not my number one talent. I got frustrated and broke things off with him. Somehow I still regret it. If I was happier about myself, doing the things i am doing now,things that i can get excited about on my own, while waiting, we still probably, are together.
Now, I can’t do much. Guess I’ll just keep on doing these things while waiting for myself to get better. Now that I know, that waiting passively frustrates me. I will never do it again. I ,now, shall wait actively!!! I’ll be the only one responsible for my own happiness!!!bow!