I recently received the worst birthday “gift” I’ve ever received my whole life….It somehow, burned my already broken heart…=c Fortunately, now, I’m with my family and just being with them helped me lessen my time alone and time to think, thus, less “emoting”.
I’m not angry, nor disappointed with him. It’s but his right to do what he has done…to move on. I’m more disappointed with myself, for still feeling the same despite everything that happened. I hate myself for the chances I let pass just because I hoped that “we” will have another chance and that everything will be better the next time. Guess, in some cases, next time is not anymore a possibilty. Now, I’m just awating for the “final blow”,as one friend termed it..hopefully, when that “final blow” comes, I’m already stronger and less emotional about it…..
With the help and support of my family and friends, people who will never ever turn their backs on me, despite all these, I’m staying positive. I know things will eventually get better, I just need to wait and see…….